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Til death do us apart?

I beginning to wonder…
this year might be THE toughest challenge Ive ever been thru with my hubby. It’s so not stated in my horroscope nor in the chinese year prediction (being born in the snake year might means sumthin, rite?)
It just so happens that the same occurence took place 6 years ago…eerie…
However, I got over it until now…

Have you ever face all your ex-es all in one year?

When you think you had overcome them all?

Ive posted a reality event not so long ago….
and another….

But all that never equal to this event that took place a few nights ago that it still stuck in my head presently…

I remember posted a blog on this guy a long time ago…
My history with him is quite confusing…we grew up together, being thru a lot together, he even slapped me once for being so arrogantly snobbish…haha! yup, I was very grateful for him for slapping me. It actually opened my eyes wide to change my attitude.

I was always with a guy. Romantically. Our relationship was strictly platonic. Although I felt the sparks flying hazardly everytime we spend the time together. My head keep thinking…it will never happen. He’s just such a good friend. I’d never destroy that friendship. Nevertheless, he was sick. And it runs in the family. I mean he lost his brother to the illness he was having. So, we never hope for him to get thru it.

I remember it well, I was in my 2nd year of A-Level when I found out he died. I nearly killed myself. Slicing my wrist. But prior to that I told my now hubby that I couldn’t take it. I was so frustrated I wanted to end it all. My hubby talked me out of it. He actually saved my life.

But this happened.
He came back. Yes. Him. The guy whom I thought was dead.
The truth was? He faked his death. Just so to leave my life. Why? Because he couldn’t take it that he was just in the way of my happiness. And he couldn’t see me with another guy. Suffering. Torturing myself. It was just sad. (it was a long story) So he faked his death. Faked. Left me alone to face his death was for me. Can you believe that?

He called my office last week. Asking to meet me. I ignored him. But then he said he was leaving. For good. I was scared. I can never face the same thing again. I figured, why not? Just close the book once and for all. (onestly I thought it was ghost calling…bulu roma meremang siyot!!)

This is different from my past relationship. This is bigger. This is HIM.

So I made up my mind and went down to meet him. Imagine my surprise when I saw him sitting at a shop’s stairs staring at me. Those eyes…those lips…those stare…my throat went dry. I regretted my decision….

Wonder what happened?

ironic 08 part trois(I)

wtf is going on with my life this year?
sumthin is buggin me d whole year
and it’s definitely not LOVE.
Instead, it was LOVED.

ladies, here’s a piece of advice 4 you players
after u broke up frm a realationship
make sure you move on to another country(or world if possible)
because when you think you’re over HIM (or not)
he might just pop up in front of you

Today is a typical SUNDAY for me
morning have breakfast,
move on to lunch(or maybe a short shopping moment)
then dinner

But today I had a great feeling
I was in a mood for a lone walk
(meaning walkin alone while njoyin selfless pleasure of window shopping)

went to c new arrivals in iSetan
went to c new UNDEAD series in kinokuniya
went to c new phone models
went to c new laptop

yeah, dat was really enjoyable for me

until…I met sumone from my past

about nuthing….

the only reason im writing this

is bcoz my nieces asked me to update my blog…

well, ive been silent 4 quite a while,

Been busy with works, family, and love

Yeah, work took priority

But u may realize after all my entries

I shld ave my family as my 1st priority…

Well, d reason being so is dat…

Ive been crying a lot lately,

It started a few months ago

Tension, stress and most probbly loneliness

IT hurts to cry so much

IT also hurts to noe dat u may not b able to work it out

IT just hurts dat u can’t tell anyone about it

IT hurts…

I found out dat, when u overtension urself

(well for me at least)

U turn to GOD for help

and in addition to dat,

I turn to work…work, work, work, and more work…

It was okay when my hubby is around to hear me babbles

But he’s not here…I felt like maybe I shld just babbles to myself

Alas, it doesn’t work…in fact, it got worse

I used to cry under d shower

Agonizing my hubby when he c me dat way

But he noes what to do

Hug me n tell me it’s ok

Sumtime I don’t even noe y I cried

Just need to let it all out

D truth is, I don’t cry a lot

Im certainly not a crybaby

Never cry at funerals

Never cry watchin sad movie

But i do cry while reading a book

Weird , huh?

Maybe I kept too much inside

I felt like, if I let it out…it might burden others

I hate my own opinion

Had a bad experience on that(nvr wanna to repeat that)

I’ve learnt to keep everythin to myself

Amazingly, shuttin myself from d outside world

It may sound impossible….but It’s not

so there….ive update my blog

being miserable for few months

does not warrant me to blog myself….

but it sure does help me with one thing

knowing that you noe Im in misery

does help me feel better

everyday is exactly the same

sounds familiar?

yea, it’s actually a title to my fave song

it expressed every lil bit of emotion

it projected my own voice

it spoke out my inner feeling

the exclusive wordin n details gives a sneek peak into my soul

what worst could’ve become into my life?

im grateful for every single torture I borne n still bear

in fact i am not me today if it’s not 4 all d experiences

during my remisniscence

one thing n only one slid into my mind

others had worst…mine might just b a pea in a bowl

therefore,

here Iam

being thankful

to those people / group of people

who’d made my life miserable

intoxicated

suffocated

n life changing

its refreshing. to go thru everyday

in exactly

the same way

ironic part deux (III)

sorry for the delay.

me being in a state of busy-ness, and confusion isn’t helping.

well, let’s just continue with our recollection from the last entry. I’ve receive e-mails bout this guy from my past. My dear friends….he’s not GAY!!!

okay, where was I? Oh yes, he was askin bout his ring.

well, here goes. the truth is: when i was going steady with Azim, we made a deal (on paper in fact!), that I would not wear the damn ring as long as we’re together. Thats exactly where it is. Still in my drawer, in my office. In the jewellery box. Nicely tugged in for eternity.

But, how the heck am I suppose to tell this -handsome-rugged-yet-still-single guy before me that I still kept his ring in my drawer? Will he ask for me to return it? I mean, c’mon! HE’s rich now, he could afford to buy a new BIGGER ring for the next woman to come into his life. For the RIGHT. ONE.

But then again, what if I told him that I’d threw it off? Or pawned it? Or lost it? Would he thought that I am such a bitch he actually dated? WHAAA -??!!! Seriously, that made my head spin!

He probably saw me grimacing at myself. My face show it all. I’m not good in hiding what I feel. It suxs. I was thinking so hard. It made my brain electrocuted.

R     : Just tell me the truth. I won’t get mad.

Here’s the truth about the truth. IT HURTS. So, we lie.

ME  : (sighin softly) I think I lost it.

R    : (stared at me with his poker face again. Slowly smile) IT’s okay. Never thought you might keep it anyway.

ME  : (BUT I DID!!!) Hmm. I’m such a bad person, huh?

I started to turn n leave the room. But he grabbed me….

ironic ’08 part deux (II)

OMG!! Nvr thought this blog cld b such a hit about me n R???

guess these ppl really indulge in scandals!!!! shame on u!!

since d last entry ppl bugged me to continue. i’ve been procrastinatin the continuation. x that i’ve forgotten the fateful event, it’s just that i’ve felt uncomfortable tellin the world what a badass bi-yatch I am.

Anyway, there r few things i need to make clear about my history with R. Here goes:

1. we knew each other thru my best friend in hi-school.
2. we gt serious after SPM.
3. we cont our r/ship til after i gt into ‘U’.
4. yes, he proposed to me….b4 I broke up with Him.

There. I answered MOST of ur questions. Satisfied? Haha…made u guys ticked lil bit there, didn’t I?

Well, where did I left u guys wonderin? Oh yeah…he invited me in. Did I accept his offer?

Frankly, I was still beyond bliss after our last confrontation where he left me in confusion. I was shaking with angst waitin to explode. He gt the guts to speak to me with such an ease and in a graceful way a vampire would to lure u into their lair!!

The house. The one where I parked my car unconsciously. It is his parents’ house. He was staying elsewhere. The parents were elsewhere also. He was just stopping by to drop his sister along the way. This is as much as I got frm him. Outside of his house. At the gate, to be precise.

The minute he popped the invitation again, I was utterly afraid. My heart was pounding. Really-really fast. My body was moving thru the gate. But my mind was screaming what the f*** r u doing??? get outta there nowww! idiot!!!

I stopped. Turned around and said it loud n clear. “This is a mistake. I shouldn’t. Really. Your parents not here.”

He just stared at me with his poker face n said: “It’s fine. W is here. (his sis) B’sides, I need to show you somethin.”