the only reason im writing this
is bcoz my nieces asked me to update my blog…
well, ive been silent 4 quite a while,
Been busy with works, family, and love
Yeah, work took priority
But u may realize after all my entries
I shld ave my family as my 1st priority…
Well, d reason being so is dat…
Ive been crying a lot lately,
It started a few months ago
Tension, stress and most probbly loneliness
IT hurts to cry so much
IT also hurts to noe dat u may not b able to work it out
IT just hurts dat u can’t tell anyone about it
IT hurts…
I found out dat, when u overtension urself
(well for me at least)
U turn to GOD for help
and in addition to dat,
I turn to work…work, work, work, and more work…
It was okay when my hubby is around to hear me babbles
But he’s not here…I felt like maybe I shld just babbles to myself
Alas, it doesn’t work…in fact, it got worse
I used to cry under d shower
Agonizing my hubby when he c me dat way
But he noes what to do
Hug me n tell me it’s ok
Sumtime I don’t even noe y I cried
Just need to let it all out
D truth is, I don’t cry a lot
Im certainly not a crybaby
Never cry at funerals
Never cry watchin sad movie
But i do cry while reading a book
Weird , huh?
Maybe I kept too much inside
I felt like, if I let it out…it might burden others
I hate my own opinion
Had a bad experience on that(nvr wanna to repeat that)
I’ve learnt to keep everythin to myself
Amazingly, shuttin myself from d outside world
It may sound impossible….but It’s not
so there….ive update my blog
being miserable for few months
does not warrant me to blog myself….
but it sure does help me with one thing
knowing that you noe Im in misery
does help me feel better
